Losing Clutter and Patience….

So for the past few weeks, in addition to working and everything else, I have been following my resolution of decluttering my house.  I have a ton of stuff to donate and I am pretty proud of myself, considering that I think I’m a borderline hoarder.  Life has been crazy in the Lane household and certain things have been put on the back burner to make way for others.  This blog being one of them, sadly.  I love blogging and I have so many ideas but I have to focus on one goal at a time.  Right now it’s the house. 

As you can imagine, chasing after a dog and two small children, working part time and still trying to do things for myself once in awhile is exhausting.  I try to keep the same routine each week for the kids so they have things to look forward to but also know that certain days we will stay home to play.  However, the days I try to get my 3 year old to take a nap usually ends up with me falling asleep while she makes a huge mess.  One time she ‘made a cake’ by dumping all of my toiletries into a bowl and stirring them together.  Another time she ‘wanted a snack’ so she started cutting up some cheese with a huge knife, which resulted in my knife block moving to the top of the fridge. She tells everyone that I moved it ‘so that no one gets stabbed.’

I’m not perfect.  I get tired and cranky.  I yell.  I text my friends or check my facebook while I should probably be keeping an eye on the kids.  I try to get creative by having ‘spa days’ or ‘drive-in movie theater’ which is pretty much code for ‘Mommy needs a break’. I don’t have time to do everything I want to do.

I recently had a friend call me ‘Supermom’ after I told her about how I make my own cleaning supplies.  I had to laugh.  If she only knew how I constantly doubt myself and my decisions. I hate the way my hair looks sometimes or I have trouble figuring out what to wear.  I think I’m lazy, mean, the list goes on and on.

I’ve come to realize that it’s always easier to think someone else is doing a better job than you.  Maybe they are.  But you know what?  We are all in this together and we are all doing the best job we can.  So instead of stacking more things on your to-do list, how about you take some less important things off?  Call that friend and catch up.  Read a chapter in a book or bake some cookies for no reason.  Reply to an email  or go for a dip in the pool.

I should be cleaning my closets today but I decided that they can wait until tomorrow. I wanted to write a blog post.  Instead of creating more stress in my life, it’s time to start managing it. I hope this post makes sense and doesn’t ramble too much.

When was the last time that you did something for yourself instead of something that you had to do?